Happy First Day of Fall and Happy Hobbit Day!

It’s finally here!! I feel like I’ve been waiting for this day forever! Now the weather just needs to cool down more and I will be happy. I’ve said this in a previous post but I simply love fall. I love Halloween. I love chilly sweater weather and ghosts and soup and costumes and spooky things. And pumpkin spice everything of COURSE.

I think most people feel a sense of renewal in the spring. Everything is fresh and green and flowers are in bloom. But me, for some reason, it is the fall. This fall especially I am feeling that renewal. A lot of it has come with the mindset I have been changing…that God has been changing in me…about my new role I’ve adopted. Earlier this year I quit my job so I could be a full time stay-at-home-mom (SAHM) to our little Josette. I won’t lie, but for quite a while I struggled with this. Not because I didn’t want to be a SAHM…but because I stupidly thought I could do it all. I thought I could work and raise our daughter how I wanted to. Lol yeah that didn’t work.

But finally I’ve come around.
It’s finally fall. It’s the shedding off of the old. Like a phoenix in its last burst of glory and flames of reds, yellows and oranges. Your whole self is transforming and it’s beautiful.
Then it turns to ash. After fall the trees become barren, exposed as the old is now gone in flame. It’s scary and you feel alone and empty.
Then the snow of winter comes. Covering the nakedness in a beautiful blanket of white. Making clean and making new. It’s beautiful, it’s cold. It makes the bones and joints stiff. Some days it’s hard to move or get out of the warmth where it’s safe…but not all days are this way.
But then…then the sun that once held no warmth begins to warm your skin. The snow melts and the ground is muddy from the cleansing snow. All the dirt your old self had has been washed away and you can finally enjoy the newness of spring.

Ok, that was all very flowery and dramatic. BUT this is how I feel about the end of the year, starting with fall. And this time I really feel myself changing and starting something new. When I was little and Lord of the Rings first came out I wanted SO BADLY to be an elf…but now that I’m an adult I have come to realize that I am NOT an elf…but a Hobbit. And I have fully accepted this and am now accepting my hobbit life as a SAHM. Learning how to bake bread, tidying up my hobbit-hole (the attic I currently live in) for any unexpected guests (my mom when she decides to come up), dressing for any unexpected adventures (trips to Wal-Mart for diapers), and being sure not to skip second breakfast or elevensies. I want to be that SAHM that wears peasant/hobbit type clothing or casual historical fashion as her everyday wear. I want to wear skirts and dresses more not because I am a “trad-wife” (a SAHM does not equal Tradwife and Tradwife does not always equal a Biblical wife. This will be a separate post) but because skirts and dresses are SO COMFY especially during the summer where I am in the Midwest. I will still wear my fair share of jeans and leggings…but if I can go about my day feeling like a hobbit, or a fairy, or like I’m a medieval peasant (while still maintaining my modern day freedoms cause I ain’t about misogyny fam) why wouldn’t I??? Why not dress in a way that makes me feel happy, pretty, comfortable and makes want to do more home-y things? Life sucks sometimes…I feel like it doesn’t hurt to romanticize what you can to help you through the day (as long as you keep Christ as your reality in the forefront!)

Routine is something that I have always craved but always struggled with. But now that I’m not in school and I’m not working and I am just…home I have ZERO excuse to not hold to some kind of routine for at least the majority of the week. So I use an app called Minimalist (not sponsored, I’m not that cool) to help.

Changing around my habits has been more difficult than I realized. I used to think if there was anything I wanted to do, (clean, read, craft, cook, etc) I had to squeeze it in either before work, or after work. Now I can almost set my own time do it. If my baby is asleep, I can ACTUALLY just pick up a book and read or do what I’m doing now and blog or watch and episode of one of my comfort shows. I am definitely finding calm and freedom in the new life that I hadn’t ever realized I would have.

Anyways…all that to say that I’m finding freedom and peace in this new life. And I’m so excited to see where God takes my little family and what He has in store for me. Happy Fall and Happy Hobbit Day!